What about now?

So, with the help of my big sis I just added some music to the blog. The song playing is "What about now" by Daughtry. You (all two of my blog readers) may have noticed it was in my playlist that I ran to the other day. While I was running there was one verse in particular, and part of the chorus that really stuck out to me....

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

Some of you know that this year has been full of change for me...yes, most importantly my Mom's death.....hence the reference to a "broken heart". But, recently I've felt the truth in these words...that the sun is beginning to break, and that it's the start of a new day. But, it's only with a touch of His grace that these shadows of pain and sorrow are beginning to fade. It's the reminder that He is by my side loving me each and every step of the way.

And yeah, Mr. Chris Daughtry....you've nailed it..."What about now?"....

Well, not that it is directly related...although it is to me.....but I've been working on a personal goal of mine, pretty intensely....getting fit, losing weight, etc. Hence the running:) And, when I began this journey, I made a private decision to do it in honor of my Mom. One, because later in her life she struggled with her weight and thus self-image. But, also because I felt that it would be something she would want me to be free of...this battle with not liking who I am. And, for those of you who read this blog (again, all two of you) you know that my motto for the year is "Thirty-three....Being me! Being Free!" So, I opted to set a goal to lose a total of 61 lbs....one for each year of my Mom's life. Now that I've begun, though, I'm not sure if it will be possible b/c I'm losing inches due to weight training. I may get close and feel like any further won't be healthy, but we'll see. Right now I'm 26 lbs. down. I opted to share this now b/c if I waited until the end it might have seemed like an afterthought that it was in her honor. So there you have it. And, that brings me full circle to the end of Mr. Daughtry's song...."What if you are making me all that I was meant to be?" I feel empowed in this endeavor, and wonder what He's going to use it for...me for. Whatever it may be, I pray that it might glorify Him and honor my Mom.